before i was a mom...

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.Before I was a Mom,I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.Chewed on.Peed on.


I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom,I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.Before I was a Mom,I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.


I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom,I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.


Before I was a Mom,I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom .

HarPeR

so, we've had a busy few weeks! It seems like we're in utah every one of Anthonys days off, and we''ll be going back this next weekend for one of my family reunions! Harper is doing so much! He rolls ALL over the place! The other day i was doing dishes, and i had him in the living room, when i looked to check on him i couldnt see him. He had rolled and scooted to the other side of the house to my room! He loves to sit up by himself, he sometimes has some issues with it but he works it out! He loves to talk and is saying DADA MaMA! its fun! Sometimes, when i wake up, ill hear him on the baby monitor and it sounds like hes singing! Everyone complaments him saying hes so happy, it could make them want them to have a baby! He really is happy all the time! Its so great! We are so blessed! Anyways, his hair got so long on the top and sides we had to give him a summer hair cut! He looks so cute! I dont think his hair has ever been this short before! Anthony thinks he looks silly, but we like it and i think he does too! no more hair in his eyes!





crazy hair after he woke up!

At the park playin around!

Hes So happy! we just love him!

Summer haircut!

Cousin Shane is a white sox fan, and Harper is of course a cubies fan!

DANHOLE

SO, today is the 2 year anniversary since my cousin Dani was killed by a drunk driver. I shouldnt say drunk because she was not only drunk but had cocaine, morphine, Benzoylecgonine -- a metabolite of cocaine -- and Hydrocodone in her system. Dani and i loved hanging out together, we used to have so much fun! I have so many great memories of her, but one of my favorites would have to be when we would talk on the phone. She had this voice that she would use, i can remember it so well. We used to talk about what was going on in tropic, what was going on with boys, and how we either hated them or loved them. When she would be at our house, we'd say alright, we are going to start a diet so we can be hot, then we would go chow down! I miss going to the rodeos with her, and the dances and coming back home to talk about our night, and how much fun we had. I had so much fun with her, i could talk about anything with her. We used to go lay in nikis room, light a candle or something, so there wasnt much light, and then all us cousins would give massages. I remember one time i gave evryone a facial, and my grandma didnt have cucumbers to put over their eyes, so i went and got pickles...i remember all the girls saying the juice was burning their eyes, but i told them its good for your skin! I miss her so much, and think of her everyday. I am so thankful for the time that we had together. Weither we were arguing when we were younger, or when we were leaving utah to go back to colorado, and her and Niki would chase the car waving bye! We had so much fun, and i will NEVER forget them! I know shes smiling down on all of us, and giving her family strength to get through everyday. " Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with meAnd you make everything alright And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with meAnd I can always find my way when you are here". Love you and miss you ALWAYS dani!



Wait a minute, i didnt have any corn today....whenever i see fat bastard, austin powers or hear anything by the two, i think of dani. She was SOO good at impersonating them!

Graduation, im so glad she was able to make it, we had so much fun!

she was such a character!

Dani had the prettiest smile, i was so jealous of that! She also had the SILKIEST hair!

She was so Beautiful, i cant believe shes gone, when i see this picture, it makes me want to cry, but smile at the same time. :D

BabY LovE

Just some pictures of our BABY LOVE! I cant believe he's already 6 months old! He is just growing and doing new things everyday! We are so blessed! He is SUCH a happy baby!

Utah Trip!

So, we went to Tropic this weekend for anthonys family reunion/memorial for his aunt that passed away a few months ago.We had so much fun, it was such a good trip. We loved seeing everyone and everyone playing with the baby. We had a small baby shower for Kacey, shes having a little girl in a few months. Trinity had a dance receital and it was she was so cute! I deceided it was time for me to start exercising and dieting again... i was going so good, but then stopped... this weekend, anthonys cousin, shes about 10 i think, asked me 3 times," Are you sure your not pregnant again? you really look like you are"! Ouch... so time to get my energy back and start working out again! Im not the best at dieting, im really terrible, but hopefully i can do a little better at it! A few weeks ago, would have been my cousin Dani's 20th birthday, so we got some balloons, wrote her a letter on them and let them go for her. Tomorrow it will be 2 years since she was killed. I miss her so much, but know shes here. Anyways, we had a great trip and hope to go back for the 4th of July!

the little girls were so cute!

trin dancin!

playin with dad

aunt mel put some lotion under her nose cause mark was stinky

her little girl is going to be so styleish!

how cute!

opening presents

he is so cute!~

short Head!

Easter!

So this year was of course Harpers first easter! we hid eggs around the house and when we woke up, anthony took the baby around to find them! he had a little baseball easter basket, and had so much fun. i dont know if it was so much the hunt of the eggs, or once they were found trying to suck the life outta them! We had some strawberry pancakes and then went to the park to play. when we were there we ran into the easter bunny! we took some pictures with him and harpers girlfriend Paiyden, shes a little cutie!




Examining his egg!

dad and harper!

Harper and Paiyden!

Harper and the Easter Bunny!

playin!

Gettin an egg!

just tryin to crawl around!

Happy little baby!!

silly boy!

so we were playing with the baby tonight and he thought it was so funny so anthony recorded it! he is just so silly and we love him way too much! he loves to scream now. we have screaming matches all the time! its so much fun! we are so blessed!

He also fell asleep in his toy again for a few minutes! he jumps and plays too hard and wears himslef out! this is after he work up to go to his bed!
hes our little rudolph :D